first day bak

its been a while but first day bak and we did nothing..... first time ive actually had spares :D 3 of them hehe
good day

well ive  been thinking about me and school and what weve been through. its actually been pretty good to me and i have had a lot of success with it.
But now when i think about it, I have been very school orientated. i used to think that doing well in school was everything, maybe that was my parents fault, by them telling me how important it is and what they expect from me.
So now I actually have a different view on it cos there really is hardly any point to school except for it to getting me into uni. Its basically insignificant in life and that's probably what I've realised over the last few months. But somehow... this has only made me work harder LOL
Well doing well in vce wouldnt make much difference in my life, but i would make my mum really happy. And she is the most important person in my life so i just want to make her proud. But also I only get one chance at this, so might as well do my best and see what I can do.
My biggest dilemma is that I haven't got a clue what I want to do. I know my strength is in science and maths and my passion is for success and making a difference. So i want to do something like eg. a marine biologist or something like that. Something fun and interesting with not much work involved and actually making somekind of difference.
well thats what been on my mind~

day 2 of the return

i sometimes wish my life was just a little bit more interesting......
all i can think about my day was doin physics hwk for like the whole day......
oh and i watched essendon vs collingwood and we lost.....
man this sucks.....
i hate reflection on my day.....


hmmm lets think of something positive....
well school is starting on wednesday, oh wait thats bad shietttttt :(
on the other hand i do get to see my friends :D
there we go found something good

chaumander out

oh and dont read my old post cos its the old lame me
just to re-emphasise from yesterday

the return???

wow im lame. my post are so gay now that i look back at them..... so try not to read the old ones below

but life has changed so much for me since last time.
eg.
found some really close friends now :)
no more r/ship
hwk level is on extra extra high
heaps of movies
spending much more time with myself (being a loner)
surprising i feel extremely relaxed and chilled even with everything that is going on with my life
i feel better about myself, especially after somers camp cos i fell that i can conquer anything now
but probably the thing that has changed the most about me is that im being a lot more honest to myself. its hard to describe but i actually was a very naive person who really didnt know anything about myself. i was just a kid.
 Now, I have realised how much friends and family mean  to me.

And i have to be honest, but I do remember a time bak in yr 9 (i think) where i basically felt that i had no friends. i didnt think of it like that but i had no one to talk to or someone i even liked being around. but when i look back, i was genuinely sad. it must have been the toughest time for me in my life and i turned to studying to make me feel better. I did sooooooooo much kumon in that period of time, probably cos i was sooooooo depressed. In a way, that was good for me educationally, and it has been a good learning experience. So these days, and this might seem pathetic, but when someone considers me being a friend of theirs, actually makes me feel really good :D so thank you to all those people and u know who u are ;) I Love You <3 (platonically off course)

keeps getting better

lol got first actual paid today 145 dollars for the month of december YAY. and supervisor gave me ferrero collection chocolate. yummy especially the white one. so good. :) but all this chocolate is goin to make me fat so.... hopefully i can burn it off somehow. need to start excercising lol better start tomorrow if i can be stuff.

:D

:D what an awesome day so far :D :D
passed my VicRoads Learners Pemit Test whit a score of 94% at time 12:40:56 :D i did so awesome AND it was so freakin easy :D finished it in like 10 mins :D
being quietly confident i even straighten hair today just for the photo :D
AND  the best thing now is that i can drive MAHAHAHAHAHA everybody better watch out for me on the roads now =D
but what was even better was at 3:16 i officially finished kumon maths :D OH YEAH OH YEAH (8)
BEEN WAITING SO DAMN LONG FOR THIS DAY TO ARRIVE AND I CANT BELIEVE ITS FINALLY HERE :D
YYAAAAAAAAAAYY.
AND GOT SPONSOR FOR THE LORD SOMERS CAMP ASWELL :D on the 8th-15th of january im gonna be on camp with tony :D
in RED group section B6 GO RED TEAM!! apparently its goin to be really competitive and hard. they had tried to pick only the fittest to go. and its goin to be heaps of fun where i shouldnt need to be worrying about anything :D
WHAT AN AWESOME DAY :D so far.
anyways off to work now
au revoir! :D

i wonder

i wonder if there are people out there who feel the same way as i do? or have ever felt like this. its the feeling of nothingness. like there is no point in life. im not talking about suicide or anything. just whats the point of life. why the hell am i hopefully going to try so damn hard to do well in vce. and this just gives me an emptyness inside that im goin to have no life for the nxt 2 years. whats there to look forward to? after vce, well hopefully i will be at uni and even there, i will be struggling with work and more stress :( is there a point for all this effort? i guess friends are keeping me goin :) and knowing having an education in life is heaps better than not having one. and im goin to be honest, maybe the feeling that u are better others? LOL or maybe i just like maths....
or is it the reward? recent achievements of mine that im goin to be bragging about for the nxt bit have been um:
3 awards on awards night :D maths accelerated, qwong lee dow and dux hehe
and thats it! lol thought there was more cos i havent blogged in over a month ahaha
well did get a trophy for kumon :P its so clear lol and nearly finished kumon too MAHAHAHA doin O193 as i typed :) hopefully can finish tomorz. OMG GONNA BE THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE TOMORROW depending if i finish or not. cos then technically i would be finished kumon :) even though there are still extension lvls to do T_T and teresa there are no O or completion test YIPI. well for me at least.

now back to why bother even trying in life. hmmm awards are good but not fulfilling. ummmmmmmm ambition? nope i dont even know what to do in life. omg ffs i dont even have any ambitions to motivate myself. i really wish i was one of those people who have a goal and know what they want to do in life. then i would be able to know what i have to do to get there and try hard to get there. all i know now is that i want to go to either melbourne or monash to study depending what happens in the nxt two years. melbourne and do bachelor of science for three years and then decide then to specialise in whatever i want to be. but i desperately want to go to monash. but if i go monash then i would have to know what i want to do. the courses are shorter cos i go straight into a course and monash is closer to my house if i plan to stay with parents. but if i go monash i would definitely know what i want to do. or else i would be just wasting my time there if i begin to change courses and stuff. then i would regret not goin to melbourne cos it would be about the same amount of time anyways and being better at the same time. im not goin to stick to a career if i dont like it and making sure of that. but getting into either of these schools would need a high atar score :@ which means i have to try really hard and should be the reason for my efforts in the nxt two years. :) but i wish i was at a better school cos it would just be heaps easier for me.. its goin to be so hard to even get a half decent score at dandy :S
well i guess i should start trying to try harder and just hope for the best in the future. (YN)

merry christmas everyone :)

:) exams over

OK EXAMS WERE FINISHED ON TUESDAY BUT I JUST GOT ALL MY RESULTS ONLY RECENTLY. and i guess i did alright, i thought i would do better in maths though, evn though it had my best score in it.
English 60/75 80%  A    (top of the class if purnoor didnt get higher than me_ :| this was a shock to me. i even beat elena....
Maths tech free-85/90 94%
          tech         91/100 91% (top of class but not so shocking) disappointed though cos they were so easy
                          A+
Biology 59/71 83% A      top of class but tom and mutaza got 88 and 89 in the other class
History 81% :)  A             didnt even study hehe
Science 100%  A               MAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA didnt even study

:D so happy but i have to continue it onto nxt year. 'great week for me but not so great for others' i think

this is the bad test that i 'must do' for teresa lol

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex. (on the cheeks?)
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn. (not mine I swear)
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.

1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt.
8. hurt someone. (all the time, but its not my intention)
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.


1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. (cookie & cream J)
4. been to a therapist.
5. been to rehab
6. dyed your hair.
7. received a ticket.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar


1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish (this is a funny story)
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.


1. dressed gothic.
2. dressed girly.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.(probably have but nothing too major)
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.

1. had a crush on a friend.
2. been to a concert.
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.


1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school. All the time this year
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.


1. owned/rented an apartment/house.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger. (how else do u meet people?)
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10.been verbally harassed.

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drank and driven.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.

Grand Total: 25

If you have less than 10, write I'm a goody-goody
If you have more than 10, write I'm still a goody goody
If you have more than 20, write I'm average
If you have more than 30, write I'm a bad kid
If you have more than 40, write I'm a very bad influence
If you have more than 50, write I'm a horrible person
If you have more than 60, write I should be in jail
If you have more than 70, write I should be dead

:D IM AVERAGE AHAHAHA 

there was other stuff but not now... need to get bejeweled coins for teresa LOL