first day bak

its been a while but first day bak and we did nothing..... first time ive actually had spares :D 3 of them hehe
good day

well ive  been thinking about me and school and what weve been through. its actually been pretty good to me and i have had a lot of success with it.
But now when i think about it, I have been very school orientated. i used to think that doing well in school was everything, maybe that was my parents fault, by them telling me how important it is and what they expect from me.
So now I actually have a different view on it cos there really is hardly any point to school except for it to getting me into uni. Its basically insignificant in life and that's probably what I've realised over the last few months. But somehow... this has only made me work harder LOL
Well doing well in vce wouldnt make much difference in my life, but i would make my mum really happy. And she is the most important person in my life so i just want to make her proud. But also I only get one chance at this, so might as well do my best and see what I can do.
My biggest dilemma is that I haven't got a clue what I want to do. I know my strength is in science and maths and my passion is for success and making a difference. So i want to do something like eg. a marine biologist or something like that. Something fun and interesting with not much work involved and actually making somekind of difference.
well thats what been on my mind~

day 2 of the return

i sometimes wish my life was just a little bit more interesting......
all i can think about my day was doin physics hwk for like the whole day......
oh and i watched essendon vs collingwood and we lost.....
man this sucks.....
i hate reflection on my day.....


hmmm lets think of something positive....
well school is starting on wednesday, oh wait thats bad shietttttt :(
on the other hand i do get to see my friends :D
there we go found something good

chaumander out

oh and dont read my old post cos its the old lame me
just to re-emphasise from yesterday

the return???

wow im lame. my post are so gay now that i look back at them..... so try not to read the old ones below

but life has changed so much for me since last time.
eg.
found some really close friends now :)
no more r/ship
hwk level is on extra extra high
heaps of movies
spending much more time with myself (being a loner)
surprising i feel extremely relaxed and chilled even with everything that is going on with my life
i feel better about myself, especially after somers camp cos i fell that i can conquer anything now
but probably the thing that has changed the most about me is that im being a lot more honest to myself. its hard to describe but i actually was a very naive person who really didnt know anything about myself. i was just a kid.
 Now, I have realised how much friends and family mean  to me.

And i have to be honest, but I do remember a time bak in yr 9 (i think) where i basically felt that i had no friends. i didnt think of it like that but i had no one to talk to or someone i even liked being around. but when i look back, i was genuinely sad. it must have been the toughest time for me in my life and i turned to studying to make me feel better. I did sooooooooo much kumon in that period of time, probably cos i was sooooooo depressed. In a way, that was good for me educationally, and it has been a good learning experience. So these days, and this might seem pathetic, but when someone considers me being a friend of theirs, actually makes me feel really good :D so thank you to all those people and u know who u are ;) I Love You <3 (platonically off course)