the year its been

well the year has gone by pretty fast cos i dont seem to remember much from the previous 6  months.
had heaps of sacs and hwk :@, plenty of tough times but also some good times.
had a break up which was ok just a bit hard at first. but it was probs for the best.
3/4 of my must watch movies are gone. transformers was super dooper awesome. it was literally the perfect movie. just green latern to go
happiness in my life on a scale of 1-10 its at about 2 atm. :( im a 16 year old kid who is just unsatisfied with his life......
i hate how ive become the nerd..... :( i dont think i should have ever been cos 10 years bak. i would have definitely never thought i would become the brain i am today. i should have became the 'jocks' who was good at sport and just played games all the time. but ive become this.....i dont know if its a good or a bad thing, yet i wouldnt want to be like this for much longer. this year and hopefully only this year, i have given up my life, my time and i often think a lot of my friends just to become a better students. god i hope it will be worth it.
my friends mean the world to me but i have basically stopped really communicating with many of them. im just very gratefully how some of them are still my friends even, from what ive heard, the dick i have been. :'( sorry peeps
i can feel how so many of them are drifting away from my life :( and im just letting it happen even though i dont want too......

an end has finally come.....

:) sacs all done... for now.
relief is all i can say. english is always hard and methods was EPICCCCCCCCC.
honestly, not being arrogant or anything, but i dont think others can really get a good score it was that hard..... well i would be surprised if they do.
well apparently most of the year 12s got the sac outside of class somehow so it would probs prevent many of them getting 0. but i didnt cheat and i dont really know how i went. i think good....
but fergy is so strict and mean....wtf is with the sac. cheating for some would be the only way that many can even get a pass. but i hate how they cheat

well on another matter, i thought nobody cared about me.... :( cos on fb i didnt get any post for a couple of weeks now...... i told tom and said he would give me a sympathy post. then the next day he came to school saying that he couldnt post on my wall and that i needed to change my privacy settings AHAHAHAHA
phewwwwwww i really was well subconsciously sad, but this comes a little bit of a relief as well.
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Can it get any worse...

 SACS EVERY FREAKIN DAY OF THE WEEK...... english is always a killer for me :( methods is alright so far.
but the worst thing about this week is that everything that ive been watching is coming to an end...... IN THE SAME WEEK WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.
bones is finishing of this week..... final episode until i dont know when...
castle is has finished as well.... and i think kate is dead :'(
how i met your mother is coming to an end.....mannnnnnn this sucks
the vampire diaries......... :( :( :( omg ffs this is terrible.
mannnnnnnn THIS IS THE WORST WEEK OF MY LIFE...... and its not even halfway yet
i think i should just keep it safe and stay in my room for the whole week lol
THK GOD that im recieving any sacs scores not in this week.
the week in hell........

first day bak

its been a while but first day bak and we did nothing..... first time ive actually had spares :D 3 of them hehe
good day

well ive  been thinking about me and school and what weve been through. its actually been pretty good to me and i have had a lot of success with it.
But now when i think about it, I have been very school orientated. i used to think that doing well in school was everything, maybe that was my parents fault, by them telling me how important it is and what they expect from me.
So now I actually have a different view on it cos there really is hardly any point to school except for it to getting me into uni. Its basically insignificant in life and that's probably what I've realised over the last few months. But somehow... this has only made me work harder LOL
Well doing well in vce wouldnt make much difference in my life, but i would make my mum really happy. And she is the most important person in my life so i just want to make her proud. But also I only get one chance at this, so might as well do my best and see what I can do.
My biggest dilemma is that I haven't got a clue what I want to do. I know my strength is in science and maths and my passion is for success and making a difference. So i want to do something like eg. a marine biologist or something like that. Something fun and interesting with not much work involved and actually making somekind of difference.
well thats what been on my mind~

day 2 of the return

i sometimes wish my life was just a little bit more interesting......
all i can think about my day was doin physics hwk for like the whole day......
oh and i watched essendon vs collingwood and we lost.....
man this sucks.....
i hate reflection on my day.....


hmmm lets think of something positive....
well school is starting on wednesday, oh wait thats bad shietttttt :(
on the other hand i do get to see my friends :D
there we go found something good

chaumander out

oh and dont read my old post cos its the old lame me
just to re-emphasise from yesterday

the return???

wow im lame. my post are so gay now that i look back at them..... so try not to read the old ones below

but life has changed so much for me since last time.
eg.
found some really close friends now :)
no more r/ship
hwk level is on extra extra high
heaps of movies
spending much more time with myself (being a loner)
surprising i feel extremely relaxed and chilled even with everything that is going on with my life
i feel better about myself, especially after somers camp cos i fell that i can conquer anything now
but probably the thing that has changed the most about me is that im being a lot more honest to myself. its hard to describe but i actually was a very naive person who really didnt know anything about myself. i was just a kid.
 Now, I have realised how much friends and family mean  to me.

And i have to be honest, but I do remember a time bak in yr 9 (i think) where i basically felt that i had no friends. i didnt think of it like that but i had no one to talk to or someone i even liked being around. but when i look back, i was genuinely sad. it must have been the toughest time for me in my life and i turned to studying to make me feel better. I did sooooooooo much kumon in that period of time, probably cos i was sooooooo depressed. In a way, that was good for me educationally, and it has been a good learning experience. So these days, and this might seem pathetic, but when someone considers me being a friend of theirs, actually makes me feel really good :D so thank you to all those people and u know who u are ;) I Love You <3 (platonically off course)

keeps getting better

lol got first actual paid today 145 dollars for the month of december YAY. and supervisor gave me ferrero collection chocolate. yummy especially the white one. so good. :) but all this chocolate is goin to make me fat so.... hopefully i can burn it off somehow. need to start excercising lol better start tomorrow if i can be stuff.